when i miss u...

yeah...when i miss u.....,

title mention it..not me...hahaha...

but it is the truth...,deep inside...,i really miss u...

i pretnd not to rmmber all the thing..,all the moment...

i pretnd to b hapy...

i pretnd to smile to eveybody...

i pretnd to b bz person...

when i thinking it back...,no point i stand in this world...in this destiny....

this is not wat i want....

and the person tat i really want is HIM!!

i know i was the one to b blame....

i was the one who broke all the words..

i was the one who spoiled the dream...

GOD!!plz always b wif me.....ANGEL...,plz take me if HE ordered it...

He's my strength....no matter wat..,he always b there...

b at my heart not for the last 3 years...,n not for the 1 minute b4 we declare...

n not for the moment we ended up our relationship....,but...4ever...

until my last breath....

i had promise to myself tat u r the last person who i'll marry wif...

i will wait until that time..until our dream come true...

i jez hoping someday i will b wif u...

 

am i egoist??

i don't really know who am i...

i can't stil recognize my indentity..

i want him but no....i dont know...

hish!!mayb this is not the time to me to think all this thing...

am i stupid??

mayb...

all person who very closed to me said tat i was very stupid...

wat i did last time is my stupid things tat i can't turn it back...

am i crazy??

mayb...

crazy about him....

is good to me to die rather than face him happy wif other person...

is good to me to xcident then out of mind(ilang ingatan)...rather than i live as a pretender..

i dont know why???he made me crazy....

but why he cant understnd all this??

how come he can 4got all this??

i dont know wat his feeling to me...

does he still love me as b4??i really want the answer.....

but i'm not ready to get the "no" answer from him...

i believe to myself tat i can wait for him...

yeah...xperience made me realized n give me brave to say it..

some guys, not mention to any1...i rejected them because i was locked my heart to other guys 

or we jez call boyz la....

i tried to open my heart to them but...,i can't...

i can't love them....i can't let my heart opened....

u were the one who locked it actually!!

u r my boy....for this moment...for this century....for this destiny...,

i still hoping tat we will b as 3 years ago...

even u r not read this blog..,or mayb u do not know...,

my love for u will never stop n plz do not ask me to stop it bcoz my last breath is the middle which cntrol it...

MOHD IZZAT MOHD SALIM