sTop CryiNg Adzleen....

from 4 pm until now...,(6.13pm)...my tears are falling....
God...,please help me...
please give me a strength to face all these things...
i'm weak..
i still love him...
i saw a ring at his finger...
God....please...i cant stand anymore....
why all these happened to me??
why i was chosen to face them??
he will be leaving maybe on Dec or Jan..
he didnt get his Visa yet...
Ya Allah....,if he's not the one...please let him go freely from me..
i dont want to remember all the memories...
if u let it..,please take me away...
even i'm not ready yet but i cant face all these...
i want him to be my last Adam...
i want him to be my greatest Adam...
i dont want to live anymore...
mama...,i'm so sorry....
i can't lie u anymore...
he's the one whom i loved the most but he's the one who hurt me...
mama...,please dont ask me to call him again...
if u want me to be happy...,please do so mama...
yes i cant live without him but he deserve better then me mama...
dont worry mama...,if he is the one..,Allah will show it...
i want to stop crying mama...
it's hurt!!!