uPdaTe!!!

Many story to tell but i 4got which la... erm....test already done....jez got left 2 more paper... i will try to do the best for it... i feel that i lost my fwenz....,my ex roomates..... like i'm terhegeh2 to them.... *yr*....,she was changed......i know she has her own life.... but....,tah...i don't know..... ***yn.....,she's too....always with her bestfriend...
about Izzat...,jez ignore....we do not have any relationship... but...,i want to write some 'warkah' for him....
"semalam...,sy rase baru jer kenal awk... time kte dah officially kapel...,sy gembira sgt.... sy dpt kenal org mcm awk...... tiap hari awk teman sy...x penah jemu call sy.... if awk call sy...,sy kene spent 1 ke 3 jam....hehehe... lame kan...ape la yg kte borak2....bnyk cite dongeng.... then nak letak tepon tp masing2 x nak letak..... awk suh sy letak dulu....tp sy x nak letak....sy takot esok luse sy x leh dgr suare awk lg... hehe..tah pape kan sy nie...awk pon same.....tah pape tah.... tiap hari awk teman sy jalan kat panas terik...mcm kat padng pasir panas nye,.. awk teman sy makan mcd...,nasi ayam ayamas.... if makan mcd...,lg best....awk cuit ayam satu persatu.... awk x nak sy rase sakit panas......sbb tu awk cuitkan.... rase diri disayangi....... awk dh tau dah menu sy kan2.... kat skola ramai ckgu2 pandg2 kte....hahaha....rase diri nie famous... then lepas abis spm...,kte rajin kuar sesame.... tiap2 hari nak kuar.....awk kate...,awk nak spent mase yg ade dgn sy... best sgt dgr awk kate mcm tu..... then sy pg plkn....sgale2 nye berubah.....sy minta maaf.... sy bnyk wat dose kat awk...sy bnyk sakitkan ati awk..... sy tahu awk sedih sgt time tu..... jahatkan sy nie...... after balik plkn....,sy kene p smbg blaja kat utare.... awk plak kat sunway.....jauh kot..... awk slalu contact sy....tp sy jahat...slalu marh2 awk... x bg awk tepon2 sy...... tp dalam hati....,tuhan je tau betape sy sedih sgt bile jauh dgn awk.... masuk sem 2....,pangai sy lagi teruk.....maki hamun awk.....jahat nye sy... sy ego sgt..... awk slalu tanye...,masih sygkan syg x kat awk... sy ego.....sy marah awk sy kate sy x ske awk tanye.... dlam hati...,sy jawab...sy sygkan awk lg...still mcm dulu.... kan sy penah ckp yg cinta sy hanya untuk seorg insan je.... mohd izzat mohd salim.... sy ingt lg tau awk time b4 sy pegi plkn..... sy b'doa supaye tuhan tutp pintu hati sy tuk lelaki lain.... sy takot kalau2 sy jatuh hati kat org laen..... kejam sgt sy kat lelaki laen.... dalam hati sy dah tetapkan awk sorg jer....xde lelaki laen.... akhir sem 2....,sy tgk pangai awk dh laen.....jarg jugak awk call n msg sy.... then kte break.....kisah cinte kte kan slalu on off on off.... mcm budk2....tp sy suke cite cinte kte... awk x penah lupe jemput sy time sy balik.... even awk marah kat sy....,awk tetap amik sy.... mulie nye hati awk.... sy ingt lagi time cuti sem 2.... kte kuar sesame.... then tah mcm mane sy mnangis kat bahu awk..... malu sgt time tu.....tp tah nape tah ngan sy time tu.... awk kate awk mintak maaf kat sy sbb abaikan sy.... awk.......,patot sy yg mintak maaf ngan awk.... sy abaikan awk selame stahun....kejam sy nie.... then kte bebaik..... sejak masuk sem 3 nie....,tah knape sy rase sy syg sgt kat awk... sy x nak kehilangan awk lg.... sy x nak dh wat awk sakit hati.....sy nak jage hati awk.... sy nak syg awk sorg jer....yup sejak sy pegi satu prgram ank angkat nie..., sy sedar......sy sygkan awk lebih dari segale2 nye.... tp..... 23 aug......,hati sy hancur sgt2...... sy tahu awk dh de gurl lain..... sy mintak maaf to tat gurl.....jage la die baik2........ lepas nie....,x de sape nak teman sy jalan2 smpai penat....,makan dgn sy..... tepon sy berejam2....dgr sy membebel.....cuitkan ayam mcd tok sy.... teman p ayamas.....sy kene wat sendiri keje2 sy.....sy kene idup berdikari.... x de org dh panggil sy syg.....x de org dah nak menggedik ngan sy.... x pe la awk....mungkin nie jalan terbaik...... mmg sy x dpt terime smue nie......tp bg sy sedikit mase n ruang tok sy terima smue... sy jez nak awk tahu yg sy sygkan awk..cinta sy hanya pada seorg sahaje... if somedy sy jmpe org yg mencintai sy as well as u did b4....,i will try to love them.... sy mintak maaf dari hujung rmbut smpai hujung kaki.....halalkan makan minum sy..."
tat's warkah for him....but he will not going to read this bcoz he doesnt know bout this blog... i jez want to share to others....i want you all feel wat i felt..... if God give me chance to turning back the clock....,i wish i didnt to know him.... is better than now....i was hurt!!!!but...,there is no turning.....wat is past jez past..... i'm looking 4ward....looking for success......looking for my future.... i will not going to fall in love again.....even i admit mayb one day i will fall in love wif other guys..., but i will not confese to them......i scared it will be like past....