aM i mAke A riTe deCisiOn??

am i??my life will chnge after tat...or i still nak hubungan tu tergantung??confuse2...i'll make an istiharah again and again until i get the answer...and hope tat u r the answer of my prayers....i wanna get a God's blessing for my love destiny..i don't know wat to say after this...afraid to face this...i don't want u to leave me...n i don't want to leave u..i need time to 4get u as well as u...is hard to me..since kte gaduh bsar mcm nie..,i jez lost evrything...x rase idup nie bermakna...impian tuk same2 berjaye ngan u dh x de...dh makin kabur...mula2 i rase if i membusykan diri..,it will settle evrything..its more better..but not...i x nmpak jalan dh...now..,u dh x amik peduli pasal i...u bukan u yg dulu...plz give back my old i****....